Monday, February 18, 2008

Irrational Fears

In addition to my wild mood swings, I also deal with major anxiety (as do many sufferers of mental illness). I take medication for times when it really affects my life, but even medication can't completely cure the problem.

I was invited out to dinner by a close friend. A former coworker is going to be in town & it would be a great chance to catch up. Another former coworker decided to come, too. Awesome. Then the anxiety kicked in.

I don't like to drive. I fear driving at night. I get very stressed about driving to places I've never driven before. Well this dinner was going to be at a part of town I'd never driven to--at night(obviously). This started to freak me out so badly, I began to have a panic attack.

I wanted to go, and I didn't want to disappoint my good friend. Yet, I cannot get over this paralyzing fear. I did tell her, and she is so understanding, but I feel so silly about it.